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12 September 2019 @ 11:07 pm

I don't know why you're here reading this but just so you know this livejournal account is dedicated to my sheer (crazy, silly, fanatic) love for Arashi. So, if you don't have any idea of what Arashi is, then I guess you're just kinda lost. (^^.')

Anyway, if you do know Arashi, welcome! welcome! ┖(♡´∀`♡) ┚

First of all, this livejournal is simply what it is, a live journal. So basically it contains all of my random thoughts and flailings on Arashi. If you're looking for stuff to watch, listen, download, etc., I'm sorry but you are not gonna find anything here. Inasmuch as I want to share stuff like that to the Arashi fandom, I have very, very, very limited resources, so I got nothing. There are, on the other hand, a gazillion communities and accounts around overflowing with Arashi stuff, so go join there instead.

This is just a collection of my thoughts, no more, no less.

Despite this, I would really appreciate it if you want me to add me as your friend. I don't know why you would add me, but if ever you do, thank you from the bottom of my heart.

...and if you wanna read the start of my long, incoherent, fangirl rants...click here (but really, don't. because this is one hell of a shitty piece of writing, it'll just give you migraine like how Limewire give your computer AIDS)

Edit: 2017.01.11
Reaaally. Don't click that. It was written almost 10 years ago and man, that is one hell of a shittt, cringy, skin-crawling fangirl rant. I just did and really, eew. I am just keeping that post for sentimental purposes --being my first post and all.

14 April 2019 @ 11:50 pm
No matter how much I say that I'm okay with The Hiatus, there's still that underlying fear that things will never be the same again after Ohno returns.

That is if he returns. Fear #2. His "natsuyasumi" is indefinite and the longer he enjoys his vacation, the less likely he'd be back.

Not that I want him to be happy, though. Urgh. God knows how much I wish for happiness for someone who's my probability of seeing in person is so small he's as good as a fictional character.

In the end, he has his own life. He doesn't owe us his life. He cannot be in Johnny's forever.

But 😭💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔
14 March 2019 @ 10:58 pm

Ohno may be my ichiban, but Aiba holds a very special spot in my heart. He's literally a "human sunshine". Like there's this genuine goodness emanating from him that I cannot explain.

I'm sure y'all know what I'm talking about, ne?

I'm listening to: 花 - 嵐
28 January 2019 @ 10:28 pm

“Around the middle of June 2017, I told other members that I wanted to end the activities as Arashi for now and that I wanted to live freely,” Satoshi Ono, the leader of the five-member idol group, said in a hastily arranged news conference in Tokyo. “I’ve discussed this many times with other members and decided that the date will be the end of 2020.”

“I wanted to get away from this world and experience a normal life,” he said, adding that he started thinking about this possibility about three years ago.
*source: JapanTimes.co.jp

After SMAP and Kanjani8's Shibutani Subaru, I've always feel that there will come a time when Arashi would have to stop. And the time has come, but not at least for 2 more years.

Seriously. I really don't know how I feel about this. My heart is breaking. REAAAAALY FUCKING BREAKING INTO FINE SMOLDERING PIECES OH MY GOD. I want to talk to someone. I don't know...

My heart is breaking but I'm trying to pick up the pieces knowing that it's what Ohno wants. For years he has said... expressed... how he was exactly not happy about being an idol... and now maybe after being in Arashi for 20 years and essentially being part of Japan's "national idol group", he definitely deserves a break.


I want him to be happy. If it means I have to give up mine.

Yes, I know this sounds stupid, cheesy, ridiculous...but really. Arashi has been a huge part of my heart and I'm not sure how I'm going to deal with the INDEFINITE hiatus.

The guys are awesome tho. They have been really supportive of their leader. It shows how extraordinarily strong their bond is.

The fans are much awesome. Sending messages of support. Sure, a million hearts are breaking, but you know, they deserve happiness.

Ohno deserves happiness.

Good luck to them.
Good luck to me.
01 January 2019 @ 03:48 pm
the highlight of my new year's eve

with bonus reheated pizza slice on a candlestick


Okay, so... I was scrolling through my tumblr dash and I came across this photo...

My initial reaction was: "haha... look at Ohno, so silly..."
then: "but why does this photo look familiar?"

and then it hit me...

***seriously, I reacted exactly like this.
I had to find the perfect gif


I just fucking lost it, man.
I started crying.

Happy fucking 5x20 Arashi.
I have a feeling I'mma be bawling my eyes out and unleashing an ocean of tears when the 5x20 tour DVD comes out.

*tumblr post, btw came from yuuyu1964, thanks a lot!

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I've been knee-deep in shitty reality that I could barely keep up with my fangirling.

Scratch that, not knee-deep... it's more like neck-deep actually.

Real life sucks, man. The only thing that barely keeps me alive is Arashi.

Yes. That sounds totally ridiculous, I know. And I ain't got no time and enough vocabulary to explain shit but these 5 guys are the very very very very verrrrry few reasons why I barely keep hanging on.

But recently, thanks to work, I had so little time to tend to my fangirling. I only learned last Wednesday (it's Sunday today) that Arashi had released a new single (Natsu Hayate). *gasp!* I actually shrieked when I found out.

A few weeks ago, I was able to find time to watch the 'Untitled' Tour DVD. I was screaming inside as 'Green Light' plays. I was in a fucking glass case of emotion and by the time 'Song for You' plays I was bawling my eyes out.

Speaking of 'Song for You', that is totes my tumor song for the Untitled album. If you don't know what the fuck a tumor song is... it's what I've been calling songs that I first didn't like but then kinda grew on me -- yes, like a tumor! Get it? I got that by the way from the movie, 'Daddy's Home' and now I digress.

Back to Arashi...

So, the magic is still here. Yassssssss.

I see that a lot of them awesome lj communities continue to sub and share Arashi videos (a million thanks, btw -- I say as if there's really someone who bothers reading this shit). I've downloaded a few, but alas, they stay untouched in my hard drive. So many videos, so little time.

I'm listening to: Matsuko Mawatari - Daydream Generation
I love reading the comments... They're so interesting :D
Saw a locally dubbed Gokusen and fell in love with Shin Sawada and his damn badass hair. Googled Jun Matsumoto and found out he's 1/5 of a Japanese boyband and laughed my ass off because the photo they used on their wikipedia page (long gone now, obviously) was ridiculously corny.

Coincidentally, I was in an anything-Japanese-obsession phase at that time, 2006-2007-ish but mostly on anime, so I thought I'd give that Japanese boyband songs a try and just randomly downloaded any song from them. I also gave their PVs a try on youtube (back when they're everywhere and not removed by shitty copyright, boo~) because what the heck, if I can handle TM Revolution's "Heart of Sword" video then surely I can take whatever this boyband and their multicolored jackets and bleached hair have to offer.

So, onto youtube I go....saw Tomadoi Nagara PV... saw Ohno Satoshi and THAT IDIOT STOLE MY HEART. Who's laughing now?
I've been an Arashi fan since then.

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10 November 2017 @ 03:05 pm
There's a new album. [untitled]
TBH, there's not a single song that stood out to me. Or maybe I wasn't much in a good mood when I first listened to it and I am still preoccupied with my love for the 'Are You Happy' album.

But there is one song that caught my attention... that ridiculously long ass song whose title I can't remember nor be bothered to find at this moment. WHAT THE HELL IS THAT SONG ANYWAY?

Okay, so "WHAT THE HELL" is basically my reaction for the whole album, starting with that ridiculously weird carrier single with an equally meh video... uhmm......'mikan'! Yes, took me quite a while to remember the title.

Sorry, if I'm spewing vitriol all around. I'm having a shitty day.

On the other hand, another single's been released because at this point in time, them boys are just song-spewing-inhumans. I was basically confused when people are posting news one of their new releases one after the other. Like. what. the. hell. do they not sleep?

I'm not complaining tho. Keep the songs coming. Please. Don't stop.
I'm not being sarcastic. Really.
I'm listening to: Arashi - To my homies
01 June 2017 @ 11:38 pm
I was scrolling through tumblr and I was wondering why my dash is flooded with arashi clips/gifs I haven't seen before... documentaries, rehearsals...

Then it dawned on me.


And oh my god I just made the most inhuman noise. Like. all. these. emotions. I wanna cryyyyyyy~

I reeeeeally wanna grab a free-because-cheap-ass-me copy because some angel uploaded the raw online... but OHHHH! I have to get to work early tomorrow!!!
i already sold my soul to this devil even tho he ain't buyin'
01 May 2017 @ 09:05 pm

Okay, but am I even allowed to post this? Like... I'm not breaking any privacy rules or something right? But it's my dashboard?

Oh tumblr, how I love thee~
So basically, tumblr is my number one to go to when I need to satisfy my basic Arashi needs. Livejournal is the place to be when I am having MAJOR Arashi craving.

I just realized 2017 is my 10th year of being an Arashi fan. Huuuu~ I can't believe it. TEN YEARS. It's like a freaking milestone or something. Should I celebrate? This is the longest time I've been obsessed a fan of something.

Technically, it's around August-September-ish when I became an official fan -- and no, not official as in member-of-fan-club-official but more of a that's-it-i-am-obsessed-over-these-guys-it's-official-i-love-them kinda official. By the time Happiness was released (and a quick peek at Wikipedia tells me it's September 2007) I was sorta into them and by the release of their next single, Step and Go in February 2008, I was already a gushing mess over them lovely dorks.

I used to binge watch everything Arashi (Thank you, Arashi communities on LiveJournal.) But then as time goes on and I have to keep up with this stupid boring Real Life™ that I had no choice but to kinda lie low on fangirling, because I have to somehow trick real life into thinking it's my priority, but sshh it's really Arashi. XD

So I had to you know..miss out on the guys.

And I'm glad I'm not alone. See photo above,

Thankfully there's tumblr, so once in a while I still get a few updates on Arashi. In the end, I kinda like it this way. It's like I've been away for quite some time that when I see a video clip, show, photo, whatever, I have this kyaaaa~!!!-oh-my-god-high-pitched-inner-squeal™.

Just like this morning I watched an episode of AnS where Gackt made them do those silly workout with dropping medicine balls onto their stomach and I was squealing at the way Ohno said, nobasu? nobasu? because he's cute as fuck.

plus the scream that followed kinda woke the sadist in me

I've digressed.
Bottomline is, I love Arashi. I may never be as active, but I'll never stop being a fan.
I'm listening to: Arashi - unknown
08 January 2017 @ 11:06 pm

In times that I want to quit, I keep reminding myself of the times Ohno wanted to quit Johnny's and yet he's still there, better than ever. Maybe I should push harder... or at least try to live and see how things would turn out day by day.

I know there's a lot of but's in this --uh... logic? train of thought?... but can I just please feel a bit of hope and optimism even for like, a minute? Thank you.
08 January 2017 @ 09:47 pm

I feel you, Rachel.
Everytime this comes up on my tumblr dash, I can only think of one person.
Call it infatuation...obsession...crush...love...delusion... whatever but there is something about seeing Ohno that makes me wanna cry. Case in point: I just finished watching an episode of 'Meringe no Kimochi' and just seeing him talking about stuff that aren't really new e.g. the number of times he wanted to quit Johnny's which ironically led to him debuting in Arashi, his art exhibits, how her mom still buys him clothes, etc. but I suddenly found myself crying. Why???

Like, honestly, he doesn't even look that spectacular in this episode either

But I love that! I love seeing him like this unlike those airbrushed flawless things on magazines. I love (and intrigued) at that scar on his cheek... I love those imperfections on his face.

Then we got to this part:

So, he was asked to give the audience a glimpse of his private life and this is what he recorded. Why??? He's a fucking enigma. And this part I actually started tearing up. Again, WHY??? I have no fucking clue. Any psychologists, psychiatrists out there are free to put in their two cents.

Why does seeing this guy make me cry?
I love him. He's so pretty I wanna cry!
I'm feeling: confusedconfused
29 August 2016 @ 01:55 pm
when you watch a concert dvd and having no one to flail with.